Saturday, June 11, 2011
final post here.
i notice a change in me. when i start to do something, i'll do it crazily fast and passionately, then i lose interest and give up regardless of the result. i lose in interest in things so quickly nowadays.
i need something short term. mmm, let's go back school to hunt for some assignments.
I MISS DOING ASSIGNMENTS. (i know it sounds weird)
for those who know, i used to stand out alot, but i lay low and speak much lesser nowadays.
i'm afraid that people will be unhappy with me and start talking behind my back.
there's one sentence that this psychiatrist asked this girl in a drama (the fierce wife) which lingered in my mind.
"why do you always think that people dislike you?"
...i don't know? i just thought wouldn't it be very shameless to stand out, keep on talking and bitching when you know that people might dislike?
so i guess it would be better to stay low profile, mingle in the crowd so that you don't attract so much attention and risk getting disliked.
forget it.
ralph should try to find the balance between these two extremes.
i don't wanna be disliked, yet don't wanna be neglected and treated as non-existent.
anyway, i probably won't be blogging here already, feel like deleting this blog more and more now.
i'll blog at somewhere else, onsugar? tumblr?
the reason why i wanna stop coming back this blog is that i'll lose interest when i see my previous posts.
farewell.